She moved into the room across the hall in the spring of 1966. I didn’t know who she was. Nobody did. She was a girl from Texas who had been in San Francisco before and gone back and now was back again trying it one more time. She had joined a band called Big Brother and the Holding Company. She needed a room.
I heard her through the wall that first night. I was lying in bed reading and she was practicing. Not performing, just working through something. Quietly enough that it was clearly for herself and not for any audience. And I stopped reading because that voice was not ordinary. I didn’t know what it was yet. I didn’t know what she was.
I just knew that whatever was coming through my wall at 11:00 on a Tuesday night in April was not the kind of thing I was used to hearing. I put down my book. I listened until she stopped. And then I lay there in the dark for a long time. I should tell you about the apartment first. It was on Clayton Street, a few blocks from the park.
A Victorian, the kind that’s everywhere in the Haight. The bay windows, the wooden floors that creaked, the specific smell of old plaster and other people’s cooking. I had lived there for about a year before she moved in. The landlord was a quiet man who didn’t ask too many questions, which was the right quality in a landlord for that neighborhood in that year.
The Haight in 1966 was still becoming what it would be. The Summer of Love hadn’t happened yet. The neighborhood was filling up with young people coming from everywhere looking for whatever it was that was supposed to be here. Some of them found it. Some of them found something else. I was 22. I had come from Portland, Oregon with a degree I wasn’t using and a vague sense that whatever I was supposed to do with my life was probably in San Francisco rather than Portland.
I was working in a bookshop on Haight Street. I was reading everything I could find. I was paying attention. And then the room across the hall opened up. And this girl from Texas moved in. The first time I actually spoke to her was the morning after that first night. I knocked on her door. I was going to say something.
I’m not sure what. Something about the music, something neighborly. She opened the door before I finished knocking. Wild curly hair, no makeup yet. A man’s flannel shirt. Coffee in her hand. Even though I hadn’t heard her make any. She looked at me with a specific direct attention of someone who had already decided whether to trust you and was proceeding accordingly.
She said, “You heard me last night, didn’t you?” It wasn’t a question. I said, “I did.” She said, “Sorry. I’ll try to be quieter.” I said, “Please, don’t.” She looked at me for a second. Then she smiled. She said, “You want some coffee?” I said, “Yes.” We sat in the kitchen for 2 hours. Living with Janis Joplin before the world knew who she was.
Before Monterey. Before Cheap Thrills. Before any of it. Was one of the specific ordinary gifts of being in the right place at the right time without knowing that’s what you were doing. She was funny. I need to say that first because it tends to get left out of the stories. She was genuinely unexpectedly funny.
The dry, observational kind. The kind that comes from paying extremely close attention to how absurd things are. She was also generous. Not with money, none of us had money, but with time and attention and the specific warmth of someone who is actually interested in the person they’re talking to. She talked about the band, about the rehearsals, about what they were trying to do, about the music she wanted to make.
She talked about Texas the way people talk about places they’ve escaped with enough distance to be funny about it and not quite enough to be completely free of it. She talked about what she heard. She was always listening to something. She had a record player in her room and I could hear it through the wall the way I could hear her singing.
Bessie Smith, Big Mama Thornton, Odetta, Lead Belly. The music she was building herself from one record at a time. In the mornings we made coffee and talked. That was the routine. Coffee and talking and the Bay Area light coming through the kitchen window. The first time I saw her perform was at the Avalon Ballroom.
She told me the night before. She said, “We’re playing tomorrow. You should come.” I said, “Okay.” I didn’t know what I was agreeing to. I went to the Avalon expecting to see my roommate in a band. I had heard her through the wall. I had heard her practice. I thought I knew what I was going to hear. I did not know what I was going to see.
Because the person who walked onto that stage was not the woman who made coffee in the kitchen. Not the woman who laughed about Texas. Not the neighbor I knew. It was something else. I have tried for 58 years to describe what happened when Janis Joplin stepped up to a microphone and opened her mouth in a room full of people.
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I have not yet found the right words. The closest I can get is this. It was like watching someone take off a coat they had been wearing their entire life. The coat of ordinary personhood. The management. The self-consciousness. All of it dropped at the microphone. And what was underneath was the voice I had heard through the wall.
Except in a room aimed at people, it was a completely different thing. I stood there with my mouth open. I thought, “I have been making coffee with this person.” I thought, “I had no idea.” The hate changed fast after that. The summer of love came. People arrived from everywhere. The neighborhood that had been quietly assembling itself became something that the whole country was watching.
And Janis was less in the apartment. More rehearsals, more shows, more of the world coming to her. We still had our mornings when she was there. We still made coffee and talked. But there were weeks at a time when I heard nothing through the wall. She was touring. She was recording. She was somewhere that was not Clayton Street. I was glad for her.
I was. And I missed her. Not the famous version, which I could go see whenever I wanted. The kitchen version, the flannel shirt and no makeup version, the one who had laughed about Texas. In 1968, Cheap Thrills went to number one. I was in a different apartment by then. I had moved to a quieter street when the hate got too crowded for the life I was trying to live.
But I was still in the city. I still knew the neighborhood. I still knew her. I heard Piece of My Heart on the radio. I was in my kitchen. Different kitchen, same city. And that voice came out of the speaker and I just stopped. I stood at the counter and I listened to the whole song. And I thought, I heard that through a wall in 1966.
I thought, the whole country is hearing it now. And I heard it first, alone in my room at 11:00 at night. And I put down my book. That is a specific thing to carry. I have carried it ever since. She died in October 1970. I heard it on the radio. The same radio, 27 years old. I sat down on the kitchen floor. I don’t know why the floor.
I just sat down. I thought about the mornings, the coffee, the way she looked when she’d been up late practicing. Slightly sheepish about the noise, slightly not sheepish because she knew it was good. I thought about standing in the Avalon Ballroom with my mouth open. I thought, I knew her before any of that. I knew the version that existed before the world got its hands on her.
That version was real. The kitchen version, the flannel shirt version, the woman who was funny and direct and generous and spent her evenings practicing through the wall. That was also her. That was also Janis. The Victorian on Clayton Street is still there. I walk past it sometimes. The bay windows look the same.
The neighborhood is different. It’s gone through many versions since 1966 as neighborhoods do. But the building is the same. The room across the hall is still there. The wall I heard her through is still there. I walk past and I think she was in there making coffee practicing through the wall being 23 and not yet known and completely and entirely herself before Monterey before Cheap Thrills before any of the things that happened that made her who the world remembers.
She was just a girl from Texas in a room across the hall making the most extraordinary sound I had ever heard. And I put down my book. I’m glad I put down my book.
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