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Rolf Harris: Hiding In Plain Sight | Full Documentary – Ty

It do say here, “Dear Jimmy, I have always wanted  to see Ron Paris doing one of his paintings.   Please, could you fix it for me? Love, [applause]  [applause] you see this young lady, sir?   She wishes that she could help you with one  of your paintings.  Good idea.  Do you   think I may leave her in your chart?  Safely. Leave her in my capable hands here.  Right.

And a bit up there.  He just seemed completely  safe, completely kind, fascinating,   creative, talented.  Enjoy yourself.  Give him a big smile while we Is it cuz I only   see the back of your head otherwise? You see it?   Ralph was a star. He was pure unadulterated.  Safe family viewing.  I can remember  watching Ralph on TV when I was a kid.

He   was a charismatic, harmless looking  figure and he touched millions of hearts.   She  anxious to rush away. She is. I’ve got  fuss all over.  Stay here and enjoy it, girl.   He said to me, “You’re irresistible.” I was .  He was .  Welcome to the stage, Mr.  Ro Paris.  He knew that he could get  away with it.

He knew he could do whatever he   wanted. He was given the green light.  to have fun with me.  Ralph Harris is   the fourth to be charged under Operation New Tree  launched after the Jimmy Savile scandal.  Ralph   Harris faces  counts of indecent assault.  Can I ask you for your reaction to the reports   that you’ve been arrested on suspicion  of sex offenses?  No comment.  Harold.

Ralph   Harris had a sexual interest in  underage girls and a tendency to use his   celebrity status with impunity.   The entertainer Rolf Harris is facing a jail   sentence after being found guilty of  counts  of sexual assault, nearly all on girls   aged under .   Um, so the thing is can’t go back and do anything  again.

What are you two paying attention?   Concentrate on me. I’m talking to you at the  moment. I’m not just pointing at him over. Oh,   you know somebody out there, do you give them  a quick wave then? Right back to me. U, what   was I going to say? Yeah, the important thing is  it’s it’s a happy sort of show is supposed to be.  So, if you see anything that you think is supposed  to be funny, laugh like mad and I’ll explain it to   you later. Is that all right?  Everybody loves  Saturday night. Everybody. Everybody. Everybody.

Everybody.  In those days, you didn’t get a  prime time Saturday night slot on BBC  unless you   were able to draw millions and millions of people.  Saturday night.  And Ralph was   absolute sensation. He was a big asset for  the BBC [applause]  because the audience   very quickly trusted him.

They knew that if  they committed an hour to watch Rol Harris,   they were going to be entertained.  Gives me a  chance to introduce the man who choreographs the   whole show, keeps us all in trim, and cracks the  whip over the dancers every week. Douggee Squires.  One of our most [cheering] My very first  impression of him that he was eccentric,   a multi-talented, eccentric, um, with a warm  personality.

The boys watch the girls   while the girls watch the boys who watch the  girls.  He worked bloody hard. He was always   willing to try anything. He could sing in his way. Watch a guy watch a d on any street in town   and  he was surrounded by young eager dancers.  We’re trying to expand the fact that Ralph was   surrounded by youth and energy.

He was  a daddy if you like of the group  and he loved   the kids. He was very good with them. but never  personal. They’re making music to watch.  [applause]  Success is a having what you  want in life and doing what you want and   having go correctly.  Did you know when  you were a child that you were going to get   there?  I’ve never had any doubt about it.

I’ve always u been supremely confident about   everything that I did. Probably because I found  uh most things that I did fairly easy to do.  [cheering] [applause] I’m Jake the Pegle  with his extra leg. Wherever I go through   rain [music and singing] and snow, the  people always let me know. There’s Jake.   Many years before I came to work with Rolf, he was  the man who I watched when I was growing up.

I’m Jake. [music and singing]  Ralph Harris was  unique because he was appealing to all age ranges.  There was something for everybody in the  shows that Ralph did. He was like that sort   of favorite uncle that you look at and think,  “Oh, there’s Ralph.”  Well, they all added to,   I suppose, a a subconscious level of trust for  the person that you’re watching on television.

this person who was in your house every weekend  in that position of trust and and power.  I suppose  you would never have questioned  that they were anything other than the person   that you saw relating to you on screen.  [applause]  [cheering]    joining the first leg.

Their  captain Rob Harris [screaming]   I was uh . There was a note put up on the  notice board at school saying that   there was going to be this uh event called Star  Games being filmed and they were looking for   people to go along and help with the filming  and there would be some celebrities  there and I, you know, loved that sort of  thing. So signed up for it straight away.

Team number three in the  Star Games final  is the theater team.  For each celebrity,   they had somebody with them to carry their  bags cuz it was all sports gear. I was   assigned to Ralph Harris. I remember carrying  his bag and he said, “Please and thank you.  ” And he was smiling. He was very  chatty with everybody.

Well,   it’s my first time here. I’m looking forward to  it. I was going to say exactly what you said, a   great fighting chance and whether we win or lose,  we’ll be thrilled to take part. How is it?  For   the first couple of hours,  he was lovely.  And you you found yourself thinking, “Oh, yeah.  You know, that’s what Harris is like.” Uh I didn’t  see any signs of what was to come at all. Nothing.

In the space of I guess about  minutes,  he assaulted me three times in plain   sight. And it was horrible because you’re  surrounded by people. and he had a method   of operating. I won’t talk about the actual  details, but he was paying me attention.  He was saying how great I’d been and he  he hugged me and that that’s when when he   happened. And it was humiliating and degrading  and awful and your your blood turns to concrete.

You can’t believe this is happening. And I  had no doubt what was happening. My period   was due and my breasts were very tender. And  I had no doubt what he’d done was deliberate.  And he did it he did that twice in the  space of I don’t know  or  minutes.   And then it was midafter afternoon.

and they  had organized a couple of taxis and one of   the cars came to get in and I had to get in  the backseat of the car. The taxi driver was   talking to someone and Ralph Harris got  in beside me and assaulted me again. Uh,   and maybe cuz there wasn’t anyone  there, I I did tell him to [ __ ] off.  And he said something which makes still  makes me feel sick now.

He said to me,   “You’re irresistible.” I was . He was . He was   years older than my dad.     I cannot explain to you what his eyes look  like. The triumph in his eyes.   You knew that he’d won and you’d lost, but you  hadn’t even had a chance to defend yourself.  It didn’t occur to me to tell anyone because  he had enormous power and status.

And I was   a little -year-old clearly there because  I was a bit starruck by some of the people   there. and you feel so small and then you start  to berate yourself for not defending yourself,   letting it happen and you think there’s something  about me that deserved that and I bloody didn’t.  Our guest this morning is  Ralph Harris. Good morning.  Good morning.

I   I watch your program. I know it’s supposed to  be for kids now.  Can I just say how lovely   you look? Just  you. Isn’t it smooth,  isn’t it?  What a smooth top.  But   the outfit is absolutely gorgeous.  I thought  I thought Australians were weren’t like that.  I thought Australians were a bit, you know,  beat them around the head and, you know,   drag them off into a cave.  I know. What?  Oh, well, yes.

I we better change the subject,   haven’t we? Because I don’t know what all the rest  of the Australians are doing, but that’s a silly   approach, isn’t it? I mean, you look so lovely.   How come you still seem so Australian? You   You’ve been here for what,  years now, haven’t  you?  On and off. Yeah. Racing back and forth.   You seem to have this amazing rapport  with children.

And on a more serious note,   you’re off to Australia soon, aren’t you, for  a world conference on child abuse. And before   we talk a little bit more about that, let’s  take a look at the video you made last year.   It’s called Kids Can Say No. Attended to  alert children to the dangers of abuse.   Nobody’s [music and singing] mine. You run  your own mine.

[singing] But mine,   let me run.  Isn’t it good to be alive on a  day like today? Good one, isn’t it?  Have a   seat there. Breathe that air. You feel it all over  your skin. It’s good. And it’s sort of feeling you   want to give somebody a big hug like that or  one of those little pats makes you feel good.  And it’s that sort of touching I want to  talk about today because it helps you to   understand the sort of touching that doesn’t  make you feel too good.  That’s me.

as I choose  not to be threatened or  abused.  My body’s mine to be used as I choose   not to be threatened or forced or abused.  I  would have been nine coming up  when I did it.   It was just a really happy day.   And again,  [music and singing]    I remember talking with him in the room where we’d  done the filming for the song.

It’s like, “Wow,   it’s him.”  He was fun. And he did autographs  for everybody.  Cuz obviously you don’t work   with Rob Paris and come away empty-handed. I was literally on cloud nine when I come   home.  To me, now I look at it, it feels  twisted. You’re doing this film when behind closed   doors you’re doing what you’re doing  and he’s  got hold of your neck and he’s hanging on tight   and he’s perhaps he’s tucked his head in there  and it feels you want it to go on for a long time.

It feels good that  it really upsets you  to think you were part of something like   that while that was going on. Just because he’s  a grown-up does not mean that you have to do what   he says. You could say, “Go away.” Please  say it. Try saying, “Go away.” Very firmly.

Go   away. What we’re trying to do is not to  scare kids, but uh let them know that there’s   um a lot of nice feelings and a lot of nice  things in the world, but there are also   a few really weird and nasty things that are happening. You’re giving them uh advice.   Go and tell an adult that you trust.

And a lot of  cases, you’ll find that adults maybe don’t believe   you. They say, “Oh, don’t be so stupid.” Or, “How  dare you tell such lies?” But these problems are   a lot more widespread than anybody believes. A lot of it’s being pushed under the   carpet because people don’t know how to  handle it.  You mustn’t be ashamed to   tell people that you were touched where you  didn’t want to be touched.

When he was at school, Paris had been known as  a weird guy. He was surprising in so many ways.   He actually was hung in our most prestigious  art awards in Australia at   the age of  with a self-portrait. And I think when he found celebrity, he found   his place in the world.  Scene one, take one.

Where do I I’m Jake the lump with my extra leg   and I think he worked out where the best way was  to take his career. Hence going to the UK where he   was universally accepted and really celebrated for  all his talents.  Is this what you set out to do   to promote Australia?  No, not consciously.  Promote R Paris? Yeah. You know, in the   entertainment game, as in every other game,  it’s publicize or perish.

When he married,   he became even bigger. Australians  universally loved him and they were   really proud of him as somebody who is  a great performer and as a human being,   as a father and as a husband.     I was .

I’d really started to hit my stride as  far as getting more work in television commercials   uh and in TV shows. I was told in advance that I  was meeting Ralph Harris. So I was very excited to   be working with him. Told my mom and dad because  they were fans of his. Um told some of my friends,   “Wow, I’m going to be working with Ralph Harris. How very cool.

” And um when when Ralph arrived   at um Channel  Studios, he was greeted by what I  call the powers that be. Uh all the men that ran   the studios. He was a like he was given the red  carpet treatment cuz he was a superstar.  Please   welcome Mr. Ralph Harris. [cheering] I took him  into my makeup room which consisted of a chair   which is a bit like um an old barber’s chair and  you had a foot rest and a even a headdress uh so   you could they could relax the talent can relax.

I had to um we used to call it powdering   your nose. So, you’d walk up with a powder puff  and blot the sweat off their face. Uh, which is   what I had to do quite regularly because he sweats  and because the lights are hot each time, however,   that I walked up to him to do that, he touched me.

He slipped his right arm down there while I was   standing towards him and he put his hand all the  way up my leg and up my shorts and just ran his   hand up my leg and up my shorts.     And I would grab his hand and give his hand back  to him. Please don’t do that. He would grab the   belt around that was hanging down.

And  twice he pulled he pulled the belt towards him to   try and crotch grind me while I was standing there  trying to blot the sweat off his face. It was very   disappointing that this man that I’d grown up  with as a young girl was behaving in this way.  When I looked into his face, I he just looked  back at me with such a such a lascivious look   that made me feel really uncomfortable  because I all of a sudden saw who he was.

He was letting me know that he was in full  control and he could do whatever he wanted.   He knew that he could get away with it.  He knew he could touch me with impunity.  He knew I wasn’t going to say anything back  because don’t upset the talent. The talent is   the most important in the whole shoot. that would  have lost me, my job, my career.

It could have   affected all the crew in the room. It could have  affected the director. Channel , for all I know,   could have lost millions of dollars. Uh, so I felt a really big sense of   responsibility because of the other people  in the room with me. However, not one man in   that room stood up for me. Not one man said,  “Hey, keep your hands off her.” Nobody did.

He was, I don’t know, given the green light to  have fun with me. I just think you’re a   shining example of success and continued success. [laughter]  Ron Harris, ladies and   gentlemen, hello there and welcome to some  more Super Jiml Fixits.  [applause]    First, a letter from Syhole in  the West Midlands.

Dear Jim,   could you please please try to fix it for my  gramps? He is an Australian dig, but can’t play   it.  The one and only Mr. Ralph Harry. [applause] Jimmy Savile and Ralph Harris   were part of the showbiz firmament as very  popular entertainers.  The fact that one   could be star guest on the show of the other  does tell you that they were uh pretty equal   figures at the time.  I mean we go back a  long time.

What was it? Several weeks ago,   wasn’t it when we first met? Several  weeks.  I was a newspaper journalist. So I had access   to a lot of gossip and there really were huge  numbers of rumors about Jimmy Savile.  Grab   that position about there. That’s good. That’s  good.  But there was very very little about   Ralph Harris at all.

May I present  that to you, Sir James? Is it Sir James   or Sir Jimmy?  No, it’s Jimmy.  Because he was seen as cuddly and safe.   Welcome to the first of a series  of live programs from the RSPCA   Harmssworth Hospital here in North  London.  We’ll be following the   stories of a variety of animals from cats  and dogs to birds, reptiles, and rabbits.

I didn’t know Roth Harris beforehand, but  they couldn’t have picked a better person.  [laughter]  You know, people from generations  past would have remembered him. And here he was   being introduced to a whole new audience  because obviously children were loving the   program as well.

When I met him, he was he  was just a lovely guy, really nice man to   to work with.  I’m in the outpatients  waiting area, which is as busy as ever.  animals of all ages, including Rosie the rat  here and and these puppies who’ve come in   for a checkup. Aren’t they delightful?  He was  really really happy. And I think he knew as well,   you know, Animal Hospital was was going to be  a hit.  You’re as mad as I am.

You certainly do your best for him.  We’ll do absolutely everything we can.  Don’t you worry.  He turned that  show into a nationwide success.   And what was then coming through Rolf  was this very very compassionate,   very heart-c centered type character who was  really in touch with people’s feelings when   they brought an animal into the animal  hospital that was sick.  Sorry.

Oh,   but because I was in the inner circle with  the family with Ralph and Owen and Bindy,   my perspective was completely different to  many other people’s who were around him.  I was privy to far more predatory behavior  than a lot of other people would have ever seen.   There was this shadow that began to creep in and  crept in more and more and more.

Rob Harris   one, two, one, two, three, four.  Hop in, will  you fellas? Lovely. Love it.     I can’t get no satisfaction. I can’t get no satisfaction   cuz I tried and I tried and I tried  and I tried. I CAN’T GET NO.  I ended up   promoting Ralph as an artist as well as playing  in the band.

satisfaction,  you know,   being somebody who was organizing shows. I started  working more and more from their house and using   the phone and stuff like that to speak and  talk to people and organize all kinds of stuff.  So my relationship with Ralph and Owen started to  grow. Bindy would come back on a Sunday normally.   So it would be Ralph and Owen and Bindy and  me.

And they seem like a regular family if you   can remove Ralph Harris from being Ralph Harris  from the picture. When it came to women,   it was impossible for Ralph to think  about his wife and his daughter.  I mean, he would on a regular basis, this would  be in front of Alwin. He’d take a woman’s hand   and then hold their hand and pull them in closer  to him and then he’d start kissing them all the   way up their arm and then he’d get up to their  neck and he’d be kissing their neck.

It was like   he was pushing a boundary and it was habitual. It was it was I can’t stop myself doing this.   I remember I was driving Ralph back from the  BBC and there were two school girls in uniform   walking along. I’m driving the car and Ralph  out of the blue just says, “Jesus, couldn’t   you just [ __ ] the pair of them?” And and when  when he said it, I mean, I’m driving along and   he and he said it and it was it was shocking  to hear him say it and I and I looked at him.

I said, “What?” And he said, “Well, just look at  them. Aren’t they just [ __ ] lovely?” I’m driving   a car. Ralph’s looking out of the window and he’s  thinking about [ __ ] two y olds, two little   girls.

And so for me, the impact of that, not only  was I furious, I was not only was I angry about   it, I fully expressed the anger that I felt and  I pulled the car over and I said, “I can’t [ __ ]   believe that you’ve just said what you’ve said. ” And he immediately went into, “I’m so   sorry. I shouldn’t have said that in  front of you.” And in the months that followed,   it became apparent that it wasn’t some kind  of sick joke that had just slipped out.

I started to notice resentment from Bindy  towards her dad. She said it was to do   with his behavior towards one of her friends,  something that her friend had revealed to her.  And to tell you the truth, I didn’t want to I  didn’t want to expand on it. I didn’t want to say,   “Well, what do you mean?” I knew  what she meant, you know,   and and I actually took it up with Ralph and  he looked at me, cut me off, and he said,   “Bear, we all make mistakes in life,  and I’ve made some pretty big mistakes,

and let’s just leave it there. ” And he walked away. He turned   around and walked away. My name  is Chip Summers. I’m a psychotherapist.   In the second half of the ‘s, a woman came  looking for help for an alcohol problem.   And it became apparent that there was a huge  secret that she was holding on to, that she was   having an enormous amount of difficulty talking  about, that she had experienced several prolonged   incidents of sexual abuse from the age of . and she’s given me permission to talk about

those experiences. What happened to her was  extremely traumatic and I think anonymity   allows her to lead some sort of life that isn’t  forever tarnished by this experience. She said,   “This person is very well known. I’ve been part  of their kind of family circle for some time.  and I don’t know whether or not I should say  the name.

And I reassured her and she said,   “It’s Ralph Harris.” She starts to tell me that   her family and Ralph Harris’s  family were very, very close.   Bindy Roth Harris’s daughter was her best friend.  They had grown up together. They were going around   a lot together, visiting each other’s homes.

And over a period of time, that started to   morph into something very different  between her and Ralph Harris.   She started to experience innocent physical  contact. Somebody touching your knee or even   your upper thigh isn’t that unusual. But  that when she and Ralph were on their own,   the boundaries were pushed a little bit further,  a little bit further, a little bit further.

Then then there is a specific point  when it changed completely from anything   that could be perceived as being innocent  into a very overt sexual insertion into   her vagina of a finger and that changes the game  completely. It then gradually got more intimate.   There was a request for masturbation.  There was a request for oral sex.

These things were happening both in his home,  in her home where opportunity presented itself,   becoming more intense, more frequent. And she  is also quite clearly told this is something   that you cannot talk about. Do not tell  anybody about this. This is our little   secret. I am a powerful person. I have money. So tread carefully.

She was having to carry   this incredible secret, this incredible  burden, incredible sense of guilt and   disgust and hatred of what is happening to  her. Trauma thrives in darkness. And Ralph   Harris made quite sure that she was shrouded in  darkness. She told me that she had been sexually   abused by Ralph Harris from the age of .

And this went on for a number of   years. And her choice was to not  say anything about it. But it caused her   a lot of trauma and was instrumental in  causing her to misuse alcohol as a way of   aniththetizing that trauma. A momentary restbite  from having to carry that burden all the time.   Good evening and welcome.

Tonight, enough rope hits the   road again. Traveling to London.  And unless you’ve spent some time in the   UK in the last decade, you’re probably  unaware just how big a star my special   guest tonight is. He is of course Ralph  Harris. Ralph, welcome to Enough Rope.  Thank   you.  It’s good to see you again.  And you.

In ,   I was working as the executive producer for  Australia’s leading interview show and uh we   were given the opportunity of interviewing  Ralph Harris. The host, Andrew Denton,   and I expected that we’d get an interview  with a kind of a pretty daggy uncle kind of   character.  I need to liberate my inner Ralph. This is my self-portrait.

Well, you could do it   better. Uh-huh.  And then it kind of descended  into a roller coaster of emotions. He started   talking about his father. The tears welled up  very very quickly in the interview.  Towards   the end of his life, we got to a situation where  I could give him a really good hug and he would   hug me back and you know and I and uh I was  able to say to him, I really love your dad.

you know,  he started talking about visiting  his mother in hospital. So I went in and I said,   “I really love you, Mom.” And she was  absolutely amazed. She said, “Do you really   I realized I’d never told her before, you know,   he actually started talking about how deeply   deeply selfish he’d been in his life, that he  was not present as a father and as a husband.

Lindy said, “You spend more time with total  strangers and give them more of your love and   attention than you do with mom and I. And I  went, “What a shocking revelation that was.”   And you think it’s bloody true. You know, you’ve  got to change.  And it was almost like when we   were watching and listening to this that there  was something else driving that confessional.

I’m conscious of the fact that I I  do want people to like me. I’m still fiercely   self-centered. It’s all me me. Change. Hard  to hard for a leopard to change its spots. He   seemed to be extremely happy after the interview  finished. Almost like he’d nailed it and he would   have people’s sympathy.

I think he wanted  to put on the public record something which   showed that he had had some demons and there  were some dark times, but that he’d moved on.  He was controlling the narrative. We finished  the interview and Andrew Denton and I went   into an adjoining room. Ralph suddenly came  in, walked straight over, said, “I I   need a hug.” And then he immediately grabbed  me into a bear hug.

He pulled my whole body,   including my my lower body, onto his  groin and pulled me right against his body.  And I immediately recoiled and  I pushed him away and I said,   “That’s not a hug. That’s a grope.” And I looked  at him. There was no remorse, no reaction,   no apology.

I had heard that when he’d worked in  television studios that he was a bit of a lech,   but I never for one moment uh realized that I  would be on the receiving end of that behavior.  All  together, there’s an old Australian  stockman lying, dying. What a memory.   Whereas some really good television presenters   were effectively finished when they became  too old, Harris was able to go on   It was mindblowing. He was at  an absolute high.

The evunular   lovable Ralph was a lucrative brand to have. [cheering] And then the most extraordinary   aspect of his career was when he painted  Her Majesty the Queen.     I can hardly believe it but up there in the  palace the queen of England is expecting   me.

Buck in Palace were quite careful  about who was allowed to do a portrait of the   queen because they worried about respect.  The trouble is you see yourself aging   in front of you.  Does that upset you?   Nah, not really. Ralph Harris was seen   as a safe hand with a brush. They knew that  he was respectful enough of the monarchy to   do a favorable portrait. Do you get fed up with  getting your portrait painted?  No, not really.

It’s quite nice just usually one just  sits and people can’t get it to cuz they know   one was busy doing nothing.  And so he was very  useful to the palace. The palace was very useful   to him.  Nice to meet you. That’s  lovely. CBE. How was that today then?  Well,   it was very good.  Five decades on, you are  still far more popular than you ever were.

Really? What is the secret of Ralph  Harris’s success?  I don’t know.   I guess it’s cuz I’m real. I’m  I’m not putting putting over a   huge phony sort of facade. The bloke  you see up on the screen is the same   bloke you meet around the corner of the  stage door or whatever.     He was an old man to us at that time and it  was quite remarkable that he was still going   uh at that stage in his life.

How were we   to know what was going on in the background? if  he came on TV, I’d turn it off or I’d turn it   over. I just didn’t want to see him. And I knew  that he worked with children. And the fact that   he worked with children really disturbed me. It  really made me wonder what he was doing to them.   Ladies and gentlemen, IT’S RALPH HARRIS.

It has all these implications all the way down   your life because the man’s always there. Please  welcome Mr. Rolf Harris. [cheering]  You can’t   get away from it. And I just felt this man  is a deceiver. He’s a social hypnotist. He   gets away with this. He presents this persona. It’s shaming all over again if you talk about it,   so I didn’t talk about it.

Will you say  hi to Rob? [applause] His public persona   during all that period was one of being  an incredibly kind, incredibly thoughtful,   incredibly safe person who you could leave your  children with. She found it very difficult to to   know how to deal with it on a weekly basis. She was seeing her abuser on television in   front of her, lorded and loved by everybody.

A poll in Time magazine had you in the top five   entertainers of the th century.   She found it very difficult to to know how to   expose that. She wanted to address it because  anybody who’s been abused wants some justice.  But what’s going to happen if I do this? Am  I going to be believed?  Vetin broadcaster   Jimmy Savile has died at the age of  .

The police currently have eight formal   allegations against Sir Jimmy Savile.   It became apparent very quickly that it   wasn’t just Savile.  Ralph Harris  has reportedly been questioned by police   investigating allegations of sexual abuse. We were up into the hundreds of allegations.  I   rang Utree and said, “I’ve got  information that can help you.

”  Ralph   Harris is the fourth to be charged under  Operation Utree launched after the Jimmy Savile   scandal.  Ralph Harris was gathering  information about victims to undermine them.   They thought there’s no way. There’s  no way they’re going to get him.  He   was too famous, too powerful. It meant  he was untouchable.

There was a real worry   he was going to get away with it.   What do you got to say for yourself,   Harris?  Ladies and gentlemen, what else can  you say about Ros Harris? [applause] After all   those years of being an entertainer, being an  artist, he got the BAFTA fellowship, we were all,   I suppose, watching that thinking, “Oh, wow.

He really deserves it because he’s been around   for decades and he’s made us all so happy.” And I  remember watching this room full of celebrities,   TV people were on their feet applauding him. And  no one more deserving than Ralph Harris at that   time.  [applause]  Thank you so much. That’s  uh very moving.

I was going to say um can you tell   what it is yet? No, but look, perhaps I won’t.  The BAFTA fellowship in TV terms is probably   beyond a nighthood. It’s like becoming a lord  really. And that’s what he’d become.  Thank   you. Thank you all so much. And thank you  to you to to you the public. You’ve always been   so supportive, just wonderful, just like friends.

But I’d also like to say a big thanks to   my daughter Bindy and uh most importantly to my  incredible, beautiful wife, my soulmate Alwin.  I am a very lucky man. Thank you. That’s  Thank you. It has all these   implications all the way down your life because  the man’s always there. In the space of about    minutes, he assaulted me three times in  plain sight.

Each time that I walked up to him,   he touched me. He slipped his right arm down  there while I was standing towards him and   he just ran his hand up my leg and up my shorts.  I would never talk about this unless the person   concerned had given full consent. What  happened to her was extremely distressing,   extremely traumatic. It’s really important  that people hear her story.

She had to   go up against enormously powerful  opposition and truth won out.   I lived in Ralph’s house. Living with Ralph was like a dream come   true. That was my home for best part of  years.  Jenny Agoda walked through the door, you know,   Kate Bush, Ernie Wise, and you know, like amazing  Michael Parkinson and like like I sit in awe.

And then there were other times it was  just really conflicting. I was last here in .  That was the last time that I visited the  house. It’s very strange being back. You   know,  a big thank you to Shining Bear and his  magical digy do players. Can we swap back again,   Miss G? Let’s give her a lovely  welcome back.

He was always   super charismatic. It was like charisma  being turned up when it came to women.  He would do things that I was told was that’s  just Ralph being Ralph. But they made me feel   uncomfortable when I was around them. Bringing  friends to the house was interesting because   you were never quite sure how Ralph would  behave.

Ralph the entertainer got switched on   and you know he’d be incredibly charming and very  flirtatious if it was women and that was the norm.  A friend of mine used to come to the house.  Ralph would turn on the character. You’d be   wonderful as a nude model. You I’d love to paint  you naked. I’d be like oh god here we go. Because   I knew what that meant.

I knew that that meant  the subject would obviously be naked and the   photographs of them would be taken rather than  just use them so that he could paint a portrait.  I know that he would, you know, look at  the pictures and I know that there were   times when he shared photographs with other  male friends of his. Ralph’s like  at the   time and the woman was his daughter’s age,  by the way.

Ralph started an affair with this   particular woman. That that was the that was  the point where I knew that I had to get out.  I couldn’t deny anymore that Ralph was  enormously selfish. It was all about what   Ralph could get from it and how he got off on  it. I have to leave the house. I left planet   Ralph.

I thought I’d got away from the storm,  but what I didn’t know was that the storm was   actually on its way. [cheering]   One of the country’s best known broadcasters,   Sir Jimmy Saddle, has died at the age of .  Flags at half mast outside Leed’s   general infirmary where he’d raised so  much for charity. But the mood was less ferial,   more top of the pops, too.  The response to  Jimmy Savile’s death is quite extraordinary.

I remember a reporter said, “Many people  here regard Jimmy Savile as a saint and   they have come today to thank God for him. ” That was perhaps an overstatement,   but that was certainly the tone of the funeral.  If Jimmy Savile had been described as a saint   immediately after his death, round about the  same time in , Ralph Harris was being   treated as a sort of living saint.  Mr.  Rolf Harris. GOOD DAY.

Do you like this   shirt?  I painted it a couple of nights ago. True. True.  , he’s in his s. He would   inevitably be thinking  about his legacy.   Wouldn’t want to worry what the weather woman’s   talking about, singing about, nagging about,  thinking about. Going to be a fine day.  He   took part in the Diamond Jubilee celebrations.   I hope you feel that outpouring of love.

Ma’am,  he received that BAFTA fellowship  and there’d been a retrospective of his art.   He was at an absolute high at the time  that Jimmy Savile fell.  First tonight,   fresh allegations that TV icon Sir Jimmy  Savile abused young girls during his   career have emerged today.

Child  protection charities have seen call   volumes to their helplines go through the roof.  The allegations are completely appalling and   I think are shocking the entire country. The  police are also looking into allegations about   people who are still alive.  It became  apparent very quickly that it wasn’t just   s within uh the first few weeks we were  up into the hundreds of of allegations.

So potentially hundreds of victims  and potentially hundreds of offenses.   I understand you’re ringing with concerns  about a child. Is that correct? Would you just   like to tell me the age of the child, please?   Woman contacted the incident room. She knew   someone who alleged that she had been a victim of  sexual abuse at the hands of Ralph Harris.

This was the first time that his name had come  to light in the investigation.     I was in my private practice in London and I got  a call from the police investigating an allegation   of abuse. They were trying to establish  whether or not she was telling the truth.   I was able to tell them that she had told  me some years ago that she had been sexually   abused from the age of  by Ralph Harris.

I was able to give them a very clear timeline   of when I first met her in the late ‘ s. We had  developed a close relationship probably because   for the first time somebody was actually hearing  what she had to say. We weren’t just talking about   an individual incident. This is something that was  perpetuated over and over again over many years.

What we were dealing with here was years of  gradual grooming when it started. She was too   young to know what was really happening.  It would continued into her ies   and it was in no way something that she was  consenting to. [applause] The fact that it   was Ralph House brings with it an enormous  amount of pressure because you’re being   abused by somebody who has got a lot of power.

[applause]  What are you thinking as you sit   down to do an interview like this about your  entire life? cuz it’s such an extraordinary   life. What are you thinking?  I’m just  wondering where you’ll go because it has   been an extraordinary life.  You were once  voted the world’s most famous living artist,   beating Rembrandt and Constable.

Well, can I just say that you see   Rembrandt didn’t have a weekly television  program where he  The first time I heard   about the allegations against Ralph Harris was  in  when I was asked to work on the case.   In sexual cases generally um you are dealing with  people who have suffered something which touches   their emotions, their feeling of selfidentity.

Quite often shame and embarrassment   all that can make it difficult to come forward.  Victim A was an incredibly vulnerable individual.   She was somebody who had suffered greatly  and the effects of that suffering were writ large   on her. When there was first contact  with with victim A, there was a lot of concerns.  It was at the very serious end of of abuse.

It  appeared different from many of the allegations   that we were getting in at that time. This victim  had been involved with the family from a child.   Challenging him and outing him was going to be  very dependent on whether she was believed or   not. I thought it was obviously going to be a  very risky thing to do, but I I wanted her to   get justice.

What can I do for you children?  WHEN’S YOUR  BIRTHDAY?  BIRTHDAY.  FATHER CHRISTMAS. We   like to know for [music and singing] sure.  ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. MOTHER CHRISTMAS. We’ll   be waiting around your present  for your  birthday. And we hope it rings a   bell till your birthday. It’s a [snorts] secret.  A secret that will never ever ever tell.

In   the late ‘s when the abuse starts, Ralph Harris  is very popular, particularly with children. He is   a safe person. And yet, she is experiencing it  completely differently.  Can I take all this   stuff off? It’s so hot. Oh, hang on to that  sausage. Where’s my real glasses?  In ,   when she was  years old, Victim  A was invited to go on holiday to Australia   by Roll’s daughter, Bindy. She was alone. She didn’t have her family.

She didn’t have any   other friends. She was miles away. She was with  the Harrises over the Christmas period. Victim   A was in in a hotel room on her own and Ralph  Harris had entered the room. He had hugged her   and digitally penetrated her. That was the start  of the sexual abuse. She didn’t tell her parents.  She had been to all intents and purposes  on the holiday of absolute lifetime.

She   could never have done that unless she  had been with the Royal Harris family.   She told me that the abuse started when she was   years old. That then continues through , ,    onwards from there.  The sexual  offending continued past adulthood.  She was about  when she finally managed to  find a way of breaking loose from his control   and his coercion and the idea that  somehow this was just something that had to   happen. The very first interview that we did  with Ralph Harris, he wasn’t under arrest.

It was a voluntary interview under caution. He was generally a fairly monoselabic and quiet   individual.  I remember Ralph Harris started  humming to himself  when we just finished an   interview. We’re sitting there and then he just  breaks into singing Sunrise.  The whole song   all the way through to Gary and myself. Sunrise.

She bring in the morning. Sunrise.  It   was massively surreal. I remember Gary and  I looking at ourselves kind of like what   do we do now?  Yeah, that could have been  nerves. It could have been anxiety. Or maybe   that’s his way of of relaxing. But as soon as  I started talking to him about the record and   about him as a performer, he just changed. He became animated and [gasps] interested.

There was always a falseness about  him. There was nothing about him   that was natural or or honest. To  me, he came across as massively arrogant.   The biggest concern he had wasn’t the actual  nature of the allegation, but it becoming public   and the damage it would do to his credibility.

He had been maybe convinced by himself   or other people around him that this could  very quickly just go away.  Police   brought Gary Glitter out of his home in  central London and took him into custody.   He was arrested on suspicion of sexual offenses  as part of operation utree.  The PR   executive Max Clifford has been arrested by  detectives investigating sexual offenses.

Stuart Hall was arrested by police at his  home in Wilms in Cheshure this morning. He spent   the day being questioned at a police  station nearby.  The fallout from Savile was   huge. people that we had grown up with in the  s,s and s. Suddenly they were all being   investigated for sexual abuse allegations  and it was a huge shock to a lot of   people because some of the names were so iconic.

Inevitably journalists started drawing up lists   and there were astonishing um rumors about who was  going to be done next.  We had heard that Ralph   Harris had been interviewed under caution. We rang  the police and we asked them to confirm that it   was Ralph Harris, but they wouldn’t.

They would  only stick to the story that they had arrested an   y old man from Barkshire under Operation Utri.  There was a kind of hysteria at that time in   which anyone who was named, it was assumed  that they were guilty. There was a strong   sense of the risk of false accusation,  which did happen to a number of people.   Ralph Harris spent quite a sizable chunk  of his fortune on expensive lawyers.

They   were writing to newsrooms, sending us very strong  letters trying to get us not to reveal his name.  And there was a period of time when he was  the only celebrity who had been arrested   under Utri who hadn’t been publicly named.   We became aware that a letter existed that had   been sent by Ralph Harris uh to victim  A’s father.

And what it did was cement   the fact that there had been a sexual  relationship between victim A and Ris.  We then received a pre-written statement  stating that there had been a relationship   with victim A. The relationship had been  consensual and had taken place when she was over   the age of .

The relationship had ended  badly and as a result these allegations were   malicious. Ralph Harris answered  no comments at all questions put to him.  What I found particularly telling the  look on his face and his body   language is this has finally caught up with  me. I haven’t managed to get away with this.   There’d effectively been a news blackout for  months.

We knew that Ralph Harris had been   questioned, but he hadn’t been officially named.  months later in April, I remember waking up one   morning and seeing that the sun had splashed  on this story. This was the biggest name under   Operation Utree since Jimmy Savile.   Can I ask you for your reaction to the   reports in the Sun newspaper  this morning that you’ve been arrested   on suspicion of sex offenses? No comment.

It ran on the news for days and days   after that headline.  Last November,   police investigating allegations of sexual  offenses searched his home here beside the   rivers in Barkshshire. He was later  questioned at a police station and formally   arrested. He’s not been charged  with any offense and is currently on bail.

That did lead directly to a  number of other allegations.  Hello,   I’m Tracy Grimshaw. Welcome to this special  edition of A Current Affair. Ralph Harris   is an icon of the entertainment.  My mother  came over to my house to tell me that   Ralph Harris was being investigated.

I thought, “No, too much money,   too rich, too powerful.” And around the  same time, um, this young woman in Australia came   forward. She had worked with Ralph Harris and  she was I think  at the time and she had told   her story  and it happened so fast and before I  knew it he was touching me and then next   thing I know his hands back out he’s giving  me a hug and I saw her face and I thought I   know you’re not lying because I’ve had my  experience with him but I really wanted to   come forward and support this woman who was a little girl when he molested her. I found

operation tree and I contacted them. There were a  number of other people who came forward.   Those allegations then form part of the case  in order to support the central allegation   from victim A. But that account was nothing to  do with Rol Harris being a celebrity.  She gave an account of being groomed by Ralph  Harris from the time that she became   a friend of his daughter. I interviewed  Bindy Harris.

For us, she was going to be a key   witness. She was Ralph Harris’s daughter. She  was Victim A’s best friend. Following   the birth of Bindy Harris’s son, victim A had come  to visit, Bindy had informed victim A that   she believed her father was having an affair  with a friend of Orwins, Ral’s wife.  She was surprised by victim A’s emotional  reaction.

At that point, victim   A had told her that she had been involved  in a sexual relationship with her father.   Bindy was completely traumatized, but one  thing she was quite firm about was that   victim A had told her she was over   when this had taken place. Also present   was Bindy Harris’s then husband, Malcolm Cox. It was a bit of a cold call knock on his door.

The first thing he said to me was, “You’ve come to  talk to me about Ralph Harris and underage girls.   I’ve been waiting for you to come and speak to  me for the last  years.” He was very clear   that victim A had alleged that she was underage  when this sexual abuse had taken place.  He pinpointed it as a start of his deterioration  in his marriage with Bindy to their subsequent   divorce.

He had real concerns about  Ralph Harris having access to his child,   Ralph Harris’s grandson, because he  believed that Ralph Harris was a pedophile.   A huge star for more than  years. Ralph  Harris is the highest profile celebrity   so far to face sex abuse charges.  The entertainer is the fourth to   be charged under Operation Utri launched after  the Jimmy Saddle scandal.

Ralph Harris faces    counts of indecent assault involving  four girls. He denies them all. These are   historical allegations and he’s charged under the  indecent assault law in place during the s.   The trial was going to be huge. There was  no doubt about it. This is one of the biggest   entertainers.  Giving evidence in a case like  this is incredibly hard.

Everything you say,   what you look like, how you present yourself, your  demeanor, your reactions, they’re all scrutinized.   This child was centered on victim A and a  lot of her suffering had been because she   wasn’t sure she’d ever be believed. It is important to realize that   conviction rates are still very very low  in historical cases of sexual offending   in particular.

With his daughter Bindy on  the left and his wife Alwin on his other arm,   the year-old entered court this morning for the  start of his trial. Ralph Harris admitted himself.  He loves to entertain the public and we saw  this every single day when he turned up to   court. He would do a very slow long walk and  it was very much meant to give us the sort of   message that this was a wholesome family man.

There’s no way he could have been guilty of the   crimes that he was being accused of. So this is  Roth when he was in the dock on the first day.  He was quite jolly and friendly and wanted to  look around and look people in the eye and just   be his own sort of performing self. I think he  was sort of treating the whole court as if it was   uh one of his productions.

Two rows of  the courtroom would be taken up every day   with Ralph Harris’s supporters. You’d hear  them sometimes very subtly muttering under   their breath as they heard their evidence. They would look towards the witnesses and the   message was that this was a man who was very  loved. He talked about doing the portrait of   the queen. He played the wobble board during  his evidence. I It was quite an act.

And you   could see that he was enjoying it, laughing and  looking at the jury trying to get them on side.  This didn’t look like a man who was worried. So,  we look at the next one with this listening to   one of the victims and he’s just staring up ahead  as if it’s nothing to do with him. Well,   there was people everywhere  and they were all looking at me and   um all of a sudden I started sweating. I’ve always said that I was groped.

I was   groped by a dirty old man for I don’t know six,  seven hours. He would have he would have touched   me two dozen times. He literally couldn’t  keep his hands off me. His barristister,   her last words to me, I put it to you that  you’re lying. And when she said that to me,   it was like being punched. And I said no words. I literally like the emotion said out of me.

When   I did get off that stand, the only person I looked  at was Ralph Harris. I stared at him. He   did not make eye contact with me once. He was on  a swivel chair. He turned his entire chair around   like this while I stalked past the sway.

When all  of these allegations were put to him, he was very   adamant in his defense. I wasn’t there. I didn’t do it. It is not true. He was very dogged   about that and he stuck to that.  Ralph  Harris has gone to trial and I’d avoided it   like the plague. I said to myself, I can’t  add anything to this. I’m not as harmed as   those girls were. I wasn’t as young as some of  them. You know, I don’t need to get involved.

My sister rang me and said, “He’s saying in  court he was never in Cambridge.”   And then I knew I had I had to. So I rang  Utree and left a message on their aunt’s   phone. I can put Ralph Harris in Cambridge.   Welcome to Cambridge [cheering] on what   will be enshrined [screaming] in the local  history books as the battle of Jesus Green.

The Star Games video was one of the turning  points of the trial. This was the point when we   thought, hang on, this isn’t necessarily going  to go the way Ralph Harris wants it to   go.  Here with the officers producing this  television footage showing Ralph Harris in   Cambridge.  Well, it’s my first time here. I’m looking forward to it.

I was going to say   exactly what you said.  A great fighting chance.  And whether we win or lose, we’ll be thrilled to   take part.  Here he is doing exactly what  he said he hasn’t.  He tried to say, “Oh,   well, sorry. I must have been confused  because it was  years ago.  I’m chauffeered there and I’m chauffeered  back out.

I didn’t even know what city I   was in. Prosecution listened to all of this  and then accused him of ducking and diving   and their implication was quite clear. If he  was lying about this, what else was he lying   about? Victim A’s testimony was clearly going  to be a very important point in the trial.  I was nervous on that morning for her and  realized what it would take.

Here   was a young woman who but for what had happened  to her would be very very different. She found   it very hard giving evidence. She found it  difficult to go back over these things. It   was really quite harrowing listening to her.  She said all of her dreams were shattered by   the awful abuse that she suffered  at the hands of her best friend’s dad.

There were seven charges that related  to allegations that victim A made. Six   of them took place when she was . She gave  two examples of him going up to her   bedroom. Her mother or and or her father were  downstairs. Ralph’s wife was downstairs and he’d   uh touch her physically and  he’d put his fingers into her vagina.

And she gave two examples of when she went  and had a sleepover at Ralph Harris’s house,   sharing a bedroom with Ralph’s daughter. Once  when Bindy had left the room, and once, in fact,   when Bindy was asleep in the bed beside her, him  coming in digitally penetrating her, licking her   vagina, and really very serious sexual assaults.

The last allegation took place when she was    years old. They were at a swimming pool at Ralph  Harris’s house. Again, he digitally penetrated   her, putting his fingers into her vagina.  No one in the jury could have been left in   any doubt as to how serious what had happened to  her was. Victim A didn’t feel she could say no.  That was her evidence.

She said that before she  would face Ralph Harris, she had to drink shed   loads of gin. Although he claimed to have been in  a consensual relationship with her for all these   years, the prosecution said that she had been  groomed and made to perform like a pet. In the   witness box, although he was talking about  victim A being over the age of , some   of the sexual acts he alluded to quite freely.

He stated that on one occasion he was staying   at Bindy’s house. Victim A had come to  the house. It was quite cold and they were all   sat on the sofa together. They had  a large blanket across their legs and whilst   watching television, Ralph Harris had got  victim A to masturbate him under the   blanket whilst he’s sat next to his daughter.

It just peels away these layers of celebrity   and actually reveals the true person he  was the controlling party. She felt she   was unable to refuse.  One of the bits  of the evidence that was crucial in this   case was although Victor May hadn’t gone to  the police until , before that she had   told people that he had sexually assaulted her.

The court heard how in the late s the female   struggled with alcohol problems. So she told her  father about the alleged abuse. He was so appalled   he wrote a letter to Ralph Harris in disgust. Mr.  Harris replied. And today in court that response   was read out as the star listened from the dock.

It was one of those moments in the trial when   your jaw just dropped listening to it and you  just couldn’t believe what you were hearing.  It shone a completely different light on his  testimony. It was a sort of confession if   you like and to hear that read out in court was  just astonishing.  There were bits of it that   just didn’t seem to make sense unless  he understood he did something wrong and that   couldn’t be a consensual adult relationship.

So for example he says when I see the misery   I have caused I am sickened by myself. I  realized the enormity of what I had done how I had   affected her whole life. I begged her forgiveness.  I would like to apologize for betraying your trust   and for unwittingly so harming your darling.  What it says is clearly that   he needs forgiveness for something.

He had acknowledged that   it was wrong. The only thing that wasn’t  contained in it was the daughter’s age.   The letter was used in conjunction with  the photographs of her in her   bikini. She says admiring her and telling her  she looked lovely in her bathing suit was just   the same as physically molesting her.

I didn’t know there was a clear understanding   in this that he admired her at that  age in that state of undress.   He had to accept that he had found her  physically attractive at the age of .   That really was a moment where everybody was  still and they really did listen. You could   have heard a a pin drop.

It was over a week  that we were waiting for that verdict and   then suddenly we were called back into court  and I remember how incredibly tense it was.  It was completely quiet in the courtroom. When  the jury came back in, two of the women were   crying. And I remember saying to Gary sat next  to me, I said, “Either this is really good or   really bad.” Good evening.

The entertainer Rolf  Harris is facing a jail sentence tonight   after being found guilty of  counts of sexual  assault, nearly all on girls aged under .  Ralph Harris had a sexual interest in  underage girls and a tendency to use   his celebrity status with impunity.  The man whose lawyers tried to prevent the   media from even revealing his name now having to  face the cameras knowing that the full   extent of his crimes can finally be revealed.

This was Ralph Harris, the Rolf Harris   who had been found guilty on all  charges. It was a huge moment for Operation Utri,   for him personally, for his career, for  all of us who had grown up with him,   who knew him throughout our childhoods.  The  year old was given a sentence of    years and  months.  Say something.  He  ruined the childhoods of a handful.

Now Ralph Harris has trashed the memories of  millions. What you got to say for yourself,   parent?  I was glad to see him  found guilty to try and give the   women he’d really damaged some support  and some recovery. And the next thing I knew,   I had more officers come and see me to take more  details.

They were already in contact with other   women who’d come forward during the case. He was going to be charged with more assaults,   including mine.  Those of you who can’t  swim yet, then if you just wait over in the   shallow water.  Kids in water, they love  it. Rivers, canals, even the lily pond in   the garden. You can’t keep them away from  it. Water has a fascination for children.

And if they can’t swim and they go off  by themselves to play by the side of some   water somewhere, you know only too well  what might happen.  One of the things   about his conviction is that it makes you  re-evaluate all of the things that he was   involved in in the past.  Or if you can swim  yourself, why not teach him yourself? It’s fun.

Team  it made you look back on all the shows  that he’d ever been involved in in a completely   different light. I had a curious catchphrase that  I used at every available opportunity. If   there was a loud bang or somebody said, “Hey,  you.” or “Just a minute.” I would say without   thinking, “I never touched her, your honor.

”  There’s no way that he would ever be able   to get his reputation back and make any sort  of comeback at all.  Police are now talking   to other potential victims.   This  call center run by the NPCC was contacted by up   to  others, all claiming that they too  had been abused by Ralph Harris.  In the days after his conviction, all  sorts of stories were coming out.

There was   a question of how many more women were going to  come forward and would he face further charges.    Victims choose to come forward at all  different times and there can be all different   kind of prompts. One of the further  allegations that came forward was Lin Beric.  I conducted a recorded interview with  her.

I was doing the radio program called Lyn   Beric Meets at Morfield’s Eye Hospital. R Harris  came to the studio one Saturday afternoon. No   decision like this is easy. But personally, I  have absolutely nothing to hide. I’ve chosen   to relinquish my anonymity because I wanted  people to understand and to hear in my voice.  If I don’t have the courage to speak out,  then people will never really know the truth.

When I met Rolf Harris, I put my  hand out to greet him and he said,   “Has anyone ever told you you are a lovely  looking woman?” He started putting his hands   all over my back. And the more I tried  to get away from him, the more he pushed   harder and harder on the seat that I was  sitting on so that I just could not move.

And then he gets uh his hands over my breast,  his fingers between my nipples, and he starts   squeezing. He grabbed hold of his fingers and  I bent his fingers right back. And I said,   “Now get your hands off me.” Then he grabbed a  hold of my dark glasses, took them off my face,   and he went, “Ah, now I can really see your face. ” The dark glasses were the thing I hid behind.

I felt very vulnerable and uh a bit lost. Then  we, you know, did the interview and played the   music just making the best of it for the rest  of the patients. But I just felt like screaming   when people were coming forward to um tell their  stories. I thought, well, I’ve held it in my heart   for over  years and I’ve not said anything.

So, I thought, well, now now’s the chance   to say something. I realized that I  wasn’t on my own with this situation.   So when Ralph was in jail, I I got a letter from  him. I was shocked at what I was reading. He says,   “Dear Bear, well, I’m finding  it extraordinarily difficult to write.  But at last, the inner rage has come to the four.

I’ve started writing a song about all of the   injustice.” And here’s how it goes. Climb  up out of the woodwork, babe. From  years ago.   The climate’s great in Britain now for making  lots of dough. You festered down there long   enough. Time’s right to grab your chance. Clap  eyes on rich celebrity and make the bastard dance.  So Ralph is now the victim. For me, it was  repulsive.

It made me absolutely realize   that there was no remorse. And in it, there’s  also a tone of revenge. Harris had private   detectives working. so hard to find every  bit of evidence. I mean, they turned up at the   houses of girls I hadn’t seen since I was . They tried everything. I had to tell everybody   and and the trolling and the men  ringing work asking me how big my tits were   and the Twitter messages and the email suggesting  I was lying.

And I have asked myself if id   known that it would end up in me being in court,  would I have done it? And I would have done,   but I think but not because I’m noble, but  because you’re sort of on a train track by then.  This time ambushed by the system  rather than by a man. It’s hard.   There will always be the person who says, “Oh,  this isn’t true.

You know, you’re just wanting   the money or or whatever.” And that’s the awful  thing because I was made to look in that courtroom   like as though I was a greedy moneygrabbing  [ __ ] All I was looking for was justice.  And that was my prime objective. One of the  main strands of defense was that I wanted to   make myself a spokesperson for women who’ve been  assaulted.

I sort of am now, but not that’s not   what I set out to do by any means. I came out of  there feeling the defense barister dissected me   and disembowed me, laid my family life out on the  floor of that courtroom for people to stomp over.  I was at work when the verdict came through  and Ro Harris was officially found   not guilty. But he wasn’t found not guilty by the  jury. They just couldn’t get a majority verdict.

The police asked me to write my victim  impact statement, even though it was never   used because we didn’t get a guilty verdict. It was very cathartic but incredibly difficult   to write. Um, and I I can read you some of  it. In the moments after he assaulted me,   which he did three times, it dawned on me  that the people around us were not seeing what I   was seeing. He held aside any question  of consent.

He’d shattered a very young woman’s   burgeoning sense of autonomy over her own body. I’d watched him on TV for many hours,   learned the words to his songs, asked for his  stylophone for Christmas. It would never have   occurred to me or any other young woman not to  trust him. Can you get back? How do you feel   being prison?